Have you ever felt that everyone else - other actors, celebrities, etc. - seems to have “it” and you don’t? That when God was passing out the skills for talent or beauty or ability or style or charm, you missed school that day?
Have you ever felt isolated by your thoughts and thought that you were the only one thinking them? That of course, you must be crazy because no one else would think such scary and dark and messed up thoughts as you?
So obviously, there’s something wrong with you.
Those thoughts – which are alienating – make you feel even more alienated because you think you’re the only one who has them. Well, not really. There are some 7 billion people on the planet now. And we all collectively share many of these same thoughts. Gandhi did. JFK did. Madonna does. And so does J Lo.
The work that is before us – and it’s only up to you – is to decide you’ve outgrown those thoughts that no longer serve you and really, never did.
But also part of the process is to not beat yourself up for having them because those thoughts have lead you to right now. All the events of your life and all events of the entire cosmos have lead you to this exact moment. So there has to be something perfect and wonderful and magical about that even if you feel it sucks.
The thoughts you think repetitively are feedback loops. They are circles. Not a straight line. And because this circle is simply a neural groove that you get stuck on, it replays itself, like a record.
But we can play new records, and because they too are circles, they are all interconnected.
Once you’ve decided that you’ve had enough, you can jump onto a new feedback loop. One that’s higher than the previous one. One that makes you feel better about yourself and encourages you and inspires you, rather than depresses and defeats you.
Think of it as ascension.
Because that’s what’s possible for all of us.
Anthony Meindl is an award-winning writer, director, producer, and Artistic Director of Anthony Meindl's Actor Workshop (AMAW) in Los Angeles, where it was voted the Best Acting Studio in Los Angeles by Backstage in 2011 and 2012 (Best Scene Study and Best Cold Read). AMAW is also located in New York and Australia.
Meindl's first feature film, “Birds of a Feather,” won the Spirit of the Festival Award at the 2012 Honolulu Rainbow Film Festival, and he won Best Director at the Downtown Film Festival Los Angeles. He is a regular contributor to The Daily Love, Backstage, and various spirituality podcasts. He has been featured in ABC News, Daily Variety, LA Weekly, The Hollywood Reporter and the CW KTLA. He is also the author of the new best-selling book, “At Left Brain Turn Right,” which helps artists of all kinds unleash their creative genius within. Follow Meindl on Twitter @AnthonyMeindl.